Day 291 | JUNE 28, 2022
Good evening, Friends, today is day 291 of our new and amazing life!
Wow, the last 24H have been absolutely insane, literally for me.
As you read this morning, I barely slept, and thanks to you, I now officially know what happened to me last night! For a moment I really thought that I was losing my mind, I won’t bore you with all the details, but just imagine, being in a trance and feel like you are dreaming, and you can’t wake up, you don’t feel your body, and you are driving at 70 miles per hour, and yet, everything around you is in slow motion, sound is muffled, that is what I experienced and it was very scary! I had an emergency consultation with my therapist and she confirmed, I had an episode of Derealization. I have never had or heard of that before, but I can tell you that it is very real and very scary.
Needless to say, that my day was not very productive in terms of work, I truly feel like I am losing my mind, but I also know that I am not, it is just amazing what kind of tricks your mind can play on us, I believe anxiety / stress were the culprits of my episode, I have prayed and I have a 2-hour therapy session tomorrow, hopefully I will know more.
As I write my journal, I can feel my mind trying to sleep into the trance, several times today, I have been able to feel my body starting to feel tingling, and that is when the trance starts, so I do few techniques to distract my mind, and so far, it has worked.
Now to what is really important, Charlie!
Charlie didn’t sleep too well either, she was also very anxious, around 7am they started to prepare her for surgery, she was the 3rd case on the OR today.
Her surgeon worked on preparing the open wound spots on Charlie’s buttocks, knees, elbows and ankles, those were all the spots that would not heal by themselves.
The surgery was successful and it lasted around 2 hours, I arrived at the Burn unit before Charlie was in her room, and when she arrived, she was awake and in very good spirits, she was very happy to see me, and I was happier to see her
Charlie was in pain, but comfortable.
We had dinner together from Panera Bread and we had an amazing conversation, very in depth about my mental health, and how last night's episode needs to be taken as a warning, I need to pay attention to what my mind is telling me.
This morning when I came downstairs, it was a little sad to not hear Charlie in the morning, her room was empty…
Thank you for your continued support and prayers!
May God Bless You!