Day 262 | MAY 30, 2022
Good evening, friends today is day 262 of our new and amazing life!
Today is a day to thank all of our heroes that made the ultimate sacrifice protecting our freedom!
Since today was a holiday, I guess baby Julien got the memo and he slept all night 🙂
I worked up some rest, and I decided to make the best breakfast for Charlie!
I worked hard in making her one of her favorite omelets, onions, tomatoes and spinach all sautéed in olive oil, a 3 eggs omelet with cheese.
I also made the two boys their favorite waffles with berries for breakfast, music was playing and we had the perfect morning!
That was until, my sweet mother came down for breakfast and she accidentally dropped a gallon of sweet tea in the kitsch floor, splashing the sweet and stick liquid all over the floor, when that happened I had just seated to eat my own omelet, and totally unjustified I just lost it, I became so frustrated, and angry with the situation, not with my mom, but I became frustrated with me having to stop my breakfast to clean up the mess, I was also frustrated that I had stopped my breakfast previously to attend to London, and a second time to Julien.
And off course I upset my mother and Charlie, I was so frustrated that I didn’t see how ridiculous my behavior was, and it took me about 45 minutes in my office, running inside of my head the entire scene that had happened upstairs, and then I realized, I overreacted, and I am so ashamed and sorry for my behavior.
I went upstairs and apologized to my mother and to Charlie, my apology was nothing compared to the hurt I caused them, I truly felt ashamed!
I know that I am overwhelmed and truly fearful of this new phase, I also know that I am overreacting and that I can do better, but the real source of my shame, is my weakness in front of two of the most amazing and strong women that I know, my mother and my wife, they are so much stronger than I am, they have suffered so much more pain, and never had an episode of frustration like the one I delivered today, I am able to recognize that I am that strong, and I should be.
After the apology I was able to start my day, and I decided to work for few hours and that gave me a good distraction from my reality, we ate lunch and it was time for Charlie to start her wound care, but before that, a very good family friend stop by with a sweet gift for our family and left swiftly so Charlie would be in time for her wound care.
The good news is Charlie’s wounds in her knees and ankles are improving, but the ones in her buttocks are not, but we know those will require a skin graft in order to heal.
Around 5:30pm, I made my way to CHO airport, to pick up our new Au Pair, she is originally from Mozambique and seems to be a very good person, we are so excited to have her as part of our family, she told me that she decided to match with our family, because on her video interview with Charlie, she felt this incredible connection with her, and she is very excited to learn from Charlie.
Once home, I decided to redeem myself by making my world-famous Italian sandwich! Everyone loved it! And as we talked and laughed with the boys, I truly saw it, this is what is all about, family, love, faith!
God knows he has given me an impossible task, but he also gave me a miracle, the life of Charlie Anne, so God, please continue to give me the strength needed to continue to be there for Charlie and the boys.
I want to say thank you, to the several of you that sent me messages, worried about my well-being, I promise you that I am going to be making time for me, sooner than I wanted, but I just need to get few more things done, but rest assured, I love our new life, and no matter how hard it becomes, I will always find my way back to gratitude! Because I know how blessed we are!
Thank you and May God bless You!
André
